First log

Hey log,

Sorry I haven't written to you sooner. It's just that I've been too lazy to get started. Just patheticly lazy. But today I had another long boring train ride after another beer chugging, cigarette coughing, sleeping all day kind of weekend. But I'll get to that in a minute. First I need to mention that I'm not writing this because I think that people actually want to hear about my life. I mean who wants to listen to a normal guy with normal problems, normal aspirations, and absolutely no skills in writing whatsoever. I realize that. But what I like about blog contrary to diary's isn't the fact that I want people to listen to me. But more the fact that anyone and everyone can. I don't expect anyone to read this, but now you have the option.

Anyways (I know there shouldn't be an S), today I got a chance to stop and think. And as usual I ended up thinking about what's missing in my life and how I can get it. Today I actually decided to do several things.

1. Firstly, I need to stop smoking. It's gotten to the point where I can't control it completely and my lungs just feel like shit after this weekend.

2. I'm going to get up a little earlier tomorrow and jog, afterwards I will do some simple weight lifting exercises and I plan to do this every day starting now.

3.... Well maybe I should start with those 2, because those goals seem to be on the edge of impossible anyways. I just have a feeling that if I start my day off with exercise and a hardy breakfast, then I might just have the power to reach all of the other goals on the loooong list. I guess if it was that simple I would've done it already. It's just that after torturing my body this weekend, I want change more than ever.

In the past I would have said that I was a weak person, without the possiblity of "being all that I can be". For some reason I've spent my whole life doing the one thing I know how to do, which is go to school. I just started a new semester and I'm already boasting to my family and friends about how much I know beforehand. But the fact of the matter is, school and my carrier, aren't high on my list of priorities. Of course it's important. But like any boy my age, what I really want is a girlfriend. I have a long whine about why I don't have one and can't seem to get one, but I'll save that for another entry. Right now I should focus on my new fitness program.

I just hope that this blog can serve it's purpose: marking a signifigant turning point in my life forever. How great would it be if I could wake up in the morning with excitement instead of dread? Where am I headed, if I'm just another guy slipping silently through the week in hope of a miracle in the weekend. By miracle I mean fixing my problems by getting shitfaced...

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